Translation
Within my mind I have always been anxious for the maintenance of my wife and children, my own body and relatives.
How will I earn money? How will I arrange the marriages of my sons and daughters?
Now, through self-surrender, I have been relieved of all anxiety. O Lord, surely You will provide for the maintenance of Your own household.
Recognizing me as Your own servant, You will certainly maintain me. While rendering service unto You, I feel the greatest happiness.
All events take place only by Your will, O Lord. The deluded soul of this world declares I am the doer! but this is pure folly.
What is a tiny soul actually able to do unless You act? The jiva can only desire to act, and unless You fulfill his desire by Your own sweet will, he cannot do anything.
Being free from all anxiety, I will humbly render service unto You. If any good or evil should occur while serving in Your home, it will not be my responsibility.
Bhaktivinoda thus completely renounces his own independence and engages in the exclusive service of Your lotus feet with no other interest in life. |